This last year has been pretty rough, not gonna lie. I went through one of the darkest, loneliest, periods of my life. I basically had no social life, no friends and was consumed by school. There were days, months even, where I just did not want to leave the house. I just felt like there was no point, no one cared, so why should I? I essentially had a quarter life crisis—if that makes any sense whatsoever. I just felt so overwhelmed by the past, the present, but most importantly, the future. I didn’t know where my life was going, I still don’t. It is a scary thing growing up. :/ Anyways, I just spent the majority of the year lost and then I listened to Ellie Goulding. I know this is going to sound pathetic, cliched, maybe even a little juvenile, but Ellie Goulding saved my life. I spent so long trying to shut out the world, making myself numb but her music just makes me feel alive. You know that feeling you get when you listen to a really good song? It’s the best, let me tell ya. Haha. Anyways, tonight Ellie tweeted this and it was kind of a full circle moment for me.
I literally just wanted to break down and cry because those three little words just mean so much. I know this sounds stupid, but Ellie and her music have dug me out of a dark place. I never feel like I am alone because I have her music. Last year at this time, I was in a horrible place, but now I just feel alive, truly alive for the first time in I don’t even know how long. This year has been rough, yes but I am here and I am ready to make 2013 a year to remember. I may not know what the future holds, but who really does? That is what life is all about—the journey. This year is going to amazing, I’ve got a good feeling about it.